Italian !!! Why Italian??

Yeah !! Italian... I know, my english sucks but I promisse to me and for God that in the next months I'll study english more hard. I need it !!! but last times, days, mounths... I'm thinking very much about ITALIAN. I don't know why I need to study and learn italian but I know that I NEED.
How at last time that I was with this motivation (about english) americans came to my city, I guess that I'll study italian.... I need for one reason that I don't know now but I'll figure out.
I was at college last night and I try to connect my macbook with wireless but no sucess. I need a login and password from school to access but I will access, one day maybe. When I was finishing the course, no no no... I need very fast.
I really need to have a good conversation with God. I try at the public bus but isn't a good place to do it. I'll reserve a time for me surrender my life for him. I need this moment with my daddy, how i need it, to put the things in the right way. Put my plans and dreams that I take to me and I'm not a good manager because I don't know me better than him, He know whats good to me, for this reason HE IS THE BEST MANAGER OF MY LIFE. I want to love you more God, help me in this way, in this life, in this world.

Hello !!!
Then, today I don't have words to put here. But I'm missing God !! Very much... I need him everyday more and more and I know that I'm not doing my best to him and I know it.
I need him more than I imagined before.... I need his presence, I need his anointing, I need HIS... All the time.. Nothing can replace him in my life... Nothing !!! and I miss him everyday, because I know.
Sometimes is hard to understand the things and there is an easier way to walk but not good way, I'm discovering how much I need him in my life. I'm feeling so lost and I know the circumstances that caused it and I wanna return and start again.
The better place for us to be is in God's presence. The best way to walk is the God's way. The best thing to do is put our lifes in God's hands. Oh Lord... How I need you.

The End - One Tree Hill - Fist Season

OMG !!! The end, one tree hill, so amazing.... in last episode I wanted cry, I guess that I`m watching very much, I need to stop it... ahahaha... Lets go watch next season !!! I`m excited whats next. It is a great serie... I`m fall in love really, I don`t know what make me see it but is good.
Today I can not write very much because I don`t have words but, I`ll put here a video and a song that make me think and make sense for me. I hope to help you too.

You run, You hide... You hold, inside... Come back to light, to the love, Just come back to start and You`ll find your heart.... You need to think about it !

What words?

I spend a half of my day thinking about the words for here. Maybe, you`re thinking "I found", but the reply is: "No... I can not", but I take a decision. Simple and Objective... I`ll just put my life here, but, this is the problem... whatever...
I was at school last night and I saw a great documentary about the brazilian culture for study, it`s sucks the schools here but I can be different, I ever wanna be different and this will not be a problem to me but the problem is my discipline... OMG, I`m sucks to have any responsibilities, like to study english (grammar) and Italian or French, too Motion Graphics and many anothers. God help me !!! I can to see how much i need it but ever I start and not close. As I need to study for University Exam next semester and I don`t start !!! I wanna speak French and Italian too but I`m not studying. I wanna item learn Motion Graphics and 3D for TV but I take any things to do and more a day without study. God this is sucks. I`ll go to repent about it.
I can not believe that I`m studying Mechatronics but Yes I am... I don`t really know the purpose of God to it is early to speak about it. I`ll study next semester about Eletronic and Mechanic and I hate it, but lets go. God have the best for me and He have a purpose on this situation and now I`m listening "He gave me a promisse - Fireflight" I love it, I`m writing with soundtrack.. the best it !!!
I guess that i`m learning to write, is simple, the problems is myself... hahahaha.... Today again, I think in her, I miss her here my future girl... I wanted talk with her but I can not !!! but I still wait for her... okay !!! I love her, my princess.
I`m fall in love for this moment here in my bed. Simply putting whats is my mind, my thoughts, my dreams, my life. am putting into words what only God knows, whats in deeper but is the time for me put out. I know that I begin with a subject and finishing with other but THIS IS ME !!! Everyday I go to a travel into my 5000 computer from mind... I love it !!! thanks God. You`re awesome.

Lately... Just thinking !!!

Now, I`m here in my bed, is onlu 03:19AM, wednesday.... and I`m here, listening "Hillsong - Yahweh". At last days, the school came back and I`m hating the course.... I really don`t born to it... I`ll try to move to another course but is a new experience that i`m living. No Good but is a experience.
Lately, I`m feeling lonely, not alone of people but alone of love maybe. I was watching One Tree hill - Season 1 and this serie make me think at life, I don't know if is good or bad but I like it, this feelings is strange but good in same time.
But I take my mind thinking on my future girlfriend, my future wife maybe, and I can not to think in a Brazilian Girlfriend, maybe is a think from my mind or my dream but ever when I begin to think, I just think in an American or Canadian girl... that will be perfect to me and I`ll be perfect to her. I know, God have the best for me and I need to wait but isn't easy.
Sometimes I want a person to me love and spend time or just talk, on internet maybe... lol !!! I need it, I need a person to me count in all the time and I'm seeking for my girl.
On my mind I think: "She will read it one day", but What day?. But if you're reading it now, you will see that I love you and I dream with you. I don't know you but I love you before meet with you.



SORRY MY ENGLISH MISTAKES

Sometimes is hard !!!!

I was on room, just seeing One tree Hill Season 1 and I saw Peyton putting your feelings sketching and I thought.."I want a place to put my feelings, to put what i'm thinking.... just one place to me put what i want to express.... but is so hard to found".
I guess that a place to me put my felings is writing but is so hard to translate it to words, translate my mind isn't very easy... I'm so complited sometimes and at time that i want to put into words, put out my moment.
I saw movies, photos, songs and I look many people putting your feelings, your expressions into simple words and I can not do it... Why? The life today on all around word have words, people writing and I love read, look, appreciate the arts from humans but when i look to me, I'm fell so unknown.
I don't know why but i'll not post it in portuguese, I want only in english maybe I'm running into words I'm sure of it but I'm lost to describe me, describe what's in deeper but I promisse that I'll try on next posts.
Jesus will help me to found a walk to do it... I believe !!!!! I believe... I don't know but I think that is easy to the others and hard for me. However, I'll found a walk....

Hello !!!

Hello Everybody !!!
Yeah... I created other blog because... I've many friends that don't speak portuguese so now.. I can to share with this friends. This is my new blog in ENGLISH VERSION. I promisse that I'll try to translate all posts else here.... It is many things but the time is it.

WARNING: Here will have many english mistakes but I promisse too that i'll be better in it okay.

thanks for all
bye bye