I felt Limited !!

Hey..... what's up?!
I'm here again.... Today is December, 31, 2009, the last day of this year, now is 5:05 AM and I'm in my parent's bed... hahaha... they are traveling now and I'm here. I was coming to sleep but I felt that I need to write here today. I really need !!!
Many weird things happened today, but my feeling is a little bit confuse. I'm figure out that I have a big desire to help people and God is bringing to me people to me help, but somethings is so hard, because I wanted to help more but I can't and everything that I could do is pray for God revel to me what's going on.
Lately, God is giving to me love for people, just love, listen, talk, and give to them a big friend, and this is all that I'm trying to do. Isn't a easy work but I'm trying. I was talking today, and reading all, I felt so limited to help, I was in totally desperation to do something more but I couldn't do. This is sucks! When you wanna help, You have a big love for the person that you can't explain, you couldn't describe and in the moment you can not do nothing.
My desire was to meet him, give a big hug and love, impart the love of God in his soul, now I will pray, just pray for God go upon your heart and impart love, let him feel beloved of God like a little child with your daddy. "God let me cry out for this friend."
Come with more love upon me God, Let me love more, come on with more situation to me learn to love people, loop with your eyes and not with my eyes, come with your love inside of me. In Jesus name.

God is awesome, I love him and everything that he done is good!

Ohh Lord, My heart is crying....

Oh my Lord !!! I need to write again... today is the day.... I am inspired to write, truly, now is a prayer, a prayer moment about a feeling that is upon my heart.

Joel 2.17 say: Tell my servants, the priests, to cry inside the temple and to offer this prayer near the altar: "Save your people, LORD God! Don't let foreign nations make jokes about us. Don't let them laugh and ask,`Where is your God?' " (Contemporary English version).


Oh Lord !!! Oh Lord !!! Forgive us Lord, because how many times, we needed, you ask us, to cry, to cry out, fell pain in spirit and scream in intercession for people, cities, states, nations, world. We are so worried about us, about our success, our money, our rewards and we forget to cry. I am so ashamed Lord, my prayer now is for you Come with your trust anguish upon my heart, come with your love, show us your love God, for us cry and shout to God. We need it Lord, your people need it Lord, God I pray now for every heart, every open heart for you comeeee lordd with this same feeling that I'm feeling now, bring to them Lord, in Jesus name.
Come God with cry, cry, cry... send your us to cry Lord, cry for people, cities, states, nations and for the world, we can't keep looking just for us, we need to see in our around, we need to love God. We need to LOVE Lord, because this is our purpose. Come with your supernatural love, supernatural cry, supernatural desperation.
Come with your authority upon us, Come with your revelation and words from your heart, show us your prayer Lord, show us your love and your cry for the world. Let's cry, Let's love, Let's proclaim freedom to the nations, freedom to the people, freedom to the broken.
Let's cry Lord! Bring your cry and your pain Lord.
Oh Lord, I cry out for the churches be alive Lord, open the eyes of every christian God, to see with your eyes, gather your people to cry out for mercy. Make us cry, Make us shout, Make us repent, Make us fast, Make us love. Bring your repentance, Bring your mercy, Bring your love.
Send your wave of repentance, cry inside out, your love.

We fasting, repenting and Mourning... Let's Return, Let's Return,
Show us your love, Show us your love, Show us your love.

Release your cry upon everyone, Make us cry inside out, Release your trust Anguish. Let's return to love, Let's return, Let's return, Let's Return. Show me your love, This is my prayer Lord.
I want to finish this prayer God, for you release your repentance that will bring revival, send revival to the earth, no box Lord, no limitations to you, freedom to the hearts. Come with your Fire.

Let's cry inside out Lord, Pour out your spirit, pour out the repentance and cry, how mercy, send revival, Shake every believer, Shake everyone to cry Lord. Is the time to cry, is the time to shout, is the time to conquer nations crying for. I ask you, let me cry for United States, come with your anguish, come with your love, how mercy, how mercy Lord. Put my facedown to cry inside out, let me fell your pain and your love Lord. I can to fell it now Lord, but isn't all, release more God. Send revival, Send revival to California, New York, Maryland, Florida, Kansas, Texas, Alabama, New Mexico, Ohio, Washington, Colorado, Virginia, Dakota, Pennsylvania, Minnesota, Idaho, Carolina, Maine, Montana, Nebraska, Utah, Arizona, Missouri, Tennessee, Mississippi, Michigan, Georgia, Oregon and all across USA. We need you God, show us the trust about us, show us your heart.

More Love, More cry, More repentance, More mercy, More shout, More intercession, More Fire, More glory, More peace, More joy, More, More, More.

How long....

OMG... How long I don't put anything here, but I will post now... so, today is thusrday, December 24, 11:53PM.. Just few minutes to Christmas, and I'm here in my ex-neighbor's home, because my parents and my sister is in a travel and my brother is in girlfriend's home, so, I'm here... listening "Kim Walker - I surrender" and Watching a movie about Jesus on TV... ahahaha... awesome.
The last times somethings have been happened in my life, some good, some bad. My life is a rollercoaster, inconstancy many times but never losing the focus that is JESUS. I love my life is crazy and fun, things happening to help me to grown up on faith and love. This is what I'm asking to the Lord.

*** MERRY CHRISTMAS *** It's midnight in São Paulo, Brazil

Today, I lived an experience so different and broken my heart. I was at the public bus, coming to here and a man came and started to speak with me, He wanted to talk with someone else. I was there and He was talking that lose your job, miss a lot your family and your sons. With 42 years old and totally broken. When He was speaking I was just thinking, He wanted to go to the church but wasn't feeling deserve to it. I told him to go, doesn't matter.
I needed leave to bus but my desire once to listen him, He need someone to love him, to listen your broken life and HELP. He need love, He need love and Where are us to love. The people from God and It has not the essence of God.
This situation broken my heart, I leave the bus so broken, and I started to pray for this man. I dare you, if you don't feel anything when you live a situation like that You don't have nothing because You don't have love. Come on, now is the time to you ask to the Lord, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE. More love, more love, more love from the Lord God Almighty.
I am not the best person to say this, but I know that there's a purpose to me do it, and I am asking to the Lord more love, and God is sending me to situations that's broking my heart and I know God will send me to new situation to just LOVE. This is our purposes, LOVE, Jesus loved, so We need to love, come on love.

"Tune of His Glory"

Amazing... song....

"Tune of His Glory"

When the lights were almost gone
Where dreams started fading
When I couldn't find home
You looked for me.

When my praise was empty words
And I didn't see it
When my prayers were lifeless
You still listened.

Now that I'm next to you
I realize
That I can't live
Without you.

No I won't live
Without you.

And I can't help
Loving you back.

Sing songs to the tune of His glory
Set glory to the Rhythms of His praise.

Nothing else could satisfy.

From: http://equalsharing.blogspot.com/

Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xdH__RX-MBc

Catch the fire !!

Something really amazing happened with me this last weekend. God is awesome, and send many brothers and sister from a lot of parts of world to come here and bless my life.
I lived things that I never lived before and I'm sure that I'll never be the same again, something happened in my natural life, and in my spirit, much more in my spirit.
I can not explain exactly what happened but I'm sure that is a pretty good thing. Thanks God for everything that happened this weekend, thanks for every brother and sister, thanks for Marc, Tom, thanks for everyone that was there. Sorry !! But I really don't remember of all names, but I love everyone of you.

Thanks God

I miss you !!!

Lately, I thought about my cousin !!! Now, I'm starting to believe that she die and This is not easy. I was listening a song from Hawk Nelson (Christian Band) and speak about this feelings. I'll put here a part from song "Hawk Nelson - I still miss you":

"But I still miss you
All the times we spent together
To hear you talk about the weather
I always prayed you'd get well soon
I wish my prayers came true
I know Jesus has the answer
And He's way bigger than the cancer in you
But I still miss you

I need some help to carry on
I need some strength to keep me strong..."

I miss you so much my beloved cousin (Cris). I love youuu... I'll never forget you.... I'm so sad with this situation... Sad Week.... Last day 29 was Birthday from her.... and I'm not good. I miss her (in portuguese there is a word for this feelings is "saudade" is most deeper than "miss you"). I'm with saudade of you.
With this situation I figure out that I put my feelings in songs... Whatever.... When I'm listening songs Sad (I'm depression), When I'm listening many HardCore (I'm angry with some situation - as now), When I'm listening songs of Revival (My spiritual life is high)... and more. I don't know if this is bad or good but is a mode to me express my feelings.

Then, I was at bus going to class and I take a decision... I'll start to draw (sketch)... Yeah !! Drawing Landscapes... Because I'm starting with Design 3D and I wanna model many landscapes but I also want to have something on paper. I confess that I'm not very good about it but I'll try. And Coming Soon I'll put here my first modeling okay...

I need some place to express my feelings.... lol

Italian !!! Why Italian??

Yeah !! Italian... I know, my english sucks but I promisse to me and for God that in the next months I'll study english more hard. I need it !!! but last times, days, mounths... I'm thinking very much about ITALIAN. I don't know why I need to study and learn italian but I know that I NEED.
How at last time that I was with this motivation (about english) americans came to my city, I guess that I'll study italian.... I need for one reason that I don't know now but I'll figure out.
I was at college last night and I try to connect my macbook with wireless but no sucess. I need a login and password from school to access but I will access, one day maybe. When I was finishing the course, no no no... I need very fast.
I really need to have a good conversation with God. I try at the public bus but isn't a good place to do it. I'll reserve a time for me surrender my life for him. I need this moment with my daddy, how i need it, to put the things in the right way. Put my plans and dreams that I take to me and I'm not a good manager because I don't know me better than him, He know whats good to me, for this reason HE IS THE BEST MANAGER OF MY LIFE. I want to love you more God, help me in this way, in this life, in this world.

Hello !!!
Then, today I don't have words to put here. But I'm missing God !! Very much... I need him everyday more and more and I know that I'm not doing my best to him and I know it.
I need him more than I imagined before.... I need his presence, I need his anointing, I need HIS... All the time.. Nothing can replace him in my life... Nothing !!! and I miss him everyday, because I know.
Sometimes is hard to understand the things and there is an easier way to walk but not good way, I'm discovering how much I need him in my life. I'm feeling so lost and I know the circumstances that caused it and I wanna return and start again.
The better place for us to be is in God's presence. The best way to walk is the God's way. The best thing to do is put our lifes in God's hands. Oh Lord... How I need you.

The End - One Tree Hill - Fist Season

OMG !!! The end, one tree hill, so amazing.... in last episode I wanted cry, I guess that I`m watching very much, I need to stop it... ahahaha... Lets go watch next season !!! I`m excited whats next. It is a great serie... I`m fall in love really, I don`t know what make me see it but is good.
Today I can not write very much because I don`t have words but, I`ll put here a video and a song that make me think and make sense for me. I hope to help you too.

You run, You hide... You hold, inside... Come back to light, to the love, Just come back to start and You`ll find your heart.... You need to think about it !

What words?

I spend a half of my day thinking about the words for here. Maybe, you`re thinking "I found", but the reply is: "No... I can not", but I take a decision. Simple and Objective... I`ll just put my life here, but, this is the problem... whatever...
I was at school last night and I saw a great documentary about the brazilian culture for study, it`s sucks the schools here but I can be different, I ever wanna be different and this will not be a problem to me but the problem is my discipline... OMG, I`m sucks to have any responsibilities, like to study english (grammar) and Italian or French, too Motion Graphics and many anothers. God help me !!! I can to see how much i need it but ever I start and not close. As I need to study for University Exam next semester and I don`t start !!! I wanna speak French and Italian too but I`m not studying. I wanna item learn Motion Graphics and 3D for TV but I take any things to do and more a day without study. God this is sucks. I`ll go to repent about it.
I can not believe that I`m studying Mechatronics but Yes I am... I don`t really know the purpose of God to it is early to speak about it. I`ll study next semester about Eletronic and Mechanic and I hate it, but lets go. God have the best for me and He have a purpose on this situation and now I`m listening "He gave me a promisse - Fireflight" I love it, I`m writing with soundtrack.. the best it !!!
I guess that i`m learning to write, is simple, the problems is myself... hahahaha.... Today again, I think in her, I miss her here my future girl... I wanted talk with her but I can not !!! but I still wait for her... okay !!! I love her, my princess.
I`m fall in love for this moment here in my bed. Simply putting whats is my mind, my thoughts, my dreams, my life. am putting into words what only God knows, whats in deeper but is the time for me put out. I know that I begin with a subject and finishing with other but THIS IS ME !!! Everyday I go to a travel into my 5000 computer from mind... I love it !!! thanks God. You`re awesome.

Lately... Just thinking !!!

Now, I`m here in my bed, is onlu 03:19AM, wednesday.... and I`m here, listening "Hillsong - Yahweh". At last days, the school came back and I`m hating the course.... I really don`t born to it... I`ll try to move to another course but is a new experience that i`m living. No Good but is a experience.
Lately, I`m feeling lonely, not alone of people but alone of love maybe. I was watching One Tree hill - Season 1 and this serie make me think at life, I don't know if is good or bad but I like it, this feelings is strange but good in same time.
But I take my mind thinking on my future girlfriend, my future wife maybe, and I can not to think in a Brazilian Girlfriend, maybe is a think from my mind or my dream but ever when I begin to think, I just think in an American or Canadian girl... that will be perfect to me and I`ll be perfect to her. I know, God have the best for me and I need to wait but isn't easy.
Sometimes I want a person to me love and spend time or just talk, on internet maybe... lol !!! I need it, I need a person to me count in all the time and I'm seeking for my girl.
On my mind I think: "She will read it one day", but What day?. But if you're reading it now, you will see that I love you and I dream with you. I don't know you but I love you before meet with you.



SORRY MY ENGLISH MISTAKES

Sometimes is hard !!!!

I was on room, just seeing One tree Hill Season 1 and I saw Peyton putting your feelings sketching and I thought.."I want a place to put my feelings, to put what i'm thinking.... just one place to me put what i want to express.... but is so hard to found".
I guess that a place to me put my felings is writing but is so hard to translate it to words, translate my mind isn't very easy... I'm so complited sometimes and at time that i want to put into words, put out my moment.
I saw movies, photos, songs and I look many people putting your feelings, your expressions into simple words and I can not do it... Why? The life today on all around word have words, people writing and I love read, look, appreciate the arts from humans but when i look to me, I'm fell so unknown.
I don't know why but i'll not post it in portuguese, I want only in english maybe I'm running into words I'm sure of it but I'm lost to describe me, describe what's in deeper but I promisse that I'll try on next posts.
Jesus will help me to found a walk to do it... I believe !!!!! I believe... I don't know but I think that is easy to the others and hard for me. However, I'll found a walk....

Hello !!!

Hello Everybody !!!
Yeah... I created other blog because... I've many friends that don't speak portuguese so now.. I can to share with this friends. This is my new blog in ENGLISH VERSION. I promisse that I'll try to translate all posts else here.... It is many things but the time is it.

WARNING: Here will have many english mistakes but I promisse too that i'll be better in it okay.

thanks for all
bye bye